I have planned this trip to relocate for a year and now is crunch time and everyone is upset with me for leaving and it's difficult to leave everyone especially my girlfriend because it means big change. But I'm 23 and need to travel before my bone density replicates that of my grandmother's who really likes me now because I bought her this book by this Afrikaaner that she swears is related to us and couldn't find it anywhere but I did in Norwood and paid like a lot for it. A lot a lot. Now she's gona miss me too.
Bugga.
All my friends have heard me talk about going overseas for a long time and it kind of became this "yeah, yeah, you're going. We get it. Gosh. Shut up already" and now I have visa papers. VISA PAPERS. FOR FRANCE. And they're all "shit! You're really gona go?! You suck! We miss you! Can I buy your car for R5000?".
And then I'm reallg gona miss my girlfriend. A lot a lot. I love her. But she cried and now I hate me for making her cry because I never wanted to be the reason she cried and now I melted like the witch from that fil-m with that guy and the road and now I'm like this:
I'm torn. And sad. I didn't sleep. And neither did she. I didn't even shave. Now I'm sad.
Bugga.
PS I drew the flag properly and all in the right order with the blue then white then red but the damn scanner does everything backwards so now it looks like I'm going to Russia. I'm not. I can't speak Russian yet.
PSS Ok, the Russian flag has horizontal stripes so really it just looks like I'm going to a dyslexic France.
PSSS I'm still sad.
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Damn...
She isn't up for the adventure?
I recommend a new start for everyone, even if it's just for a little while. A chance to run away and reinvent and explore. It feels shitty now but you'll never regret it.
Ben: You are wise. She wants to finish studying and work in SA which I endorse. I know I will regret it if I don't go and I might only be able to go for 9 months but then I'll just move over to the UK. It is difficult. But I have to. It makes me sad. Blah.
That is tough dude. But it may all work out. My boyfriend left me for 15 months to go to Antarctica. It was a once in a lifetime experience, but we loved eachother so we waited and are still together. Good luck!
Po: First of all - Antarctica? Why didn't you go with? Secondly - yeah, she wants to join me when she's finished studying. It is possible. Woot. Not so sad anymore :) Thanks!
He was working for the SA government, they go on a boat, get left for 15 months, and at the end they go fetch them again. No partners allowed, but I was studying anyway, and quite frankly think I would have died of hypothermia!
Po: Ooh... SA govt in Antarctica? What they doing there? I am intrigued. I didn't think we were... interested in poles. No partners. France doesn't have that rule. Quite the opposite actually. Score for JL!
PS hypothermia is one of the most unconventional(and thus cool) ways to die, like running into a bull fight or covering yourself in dead birds and running into a cage of things that eat dead birds. Weird.
SA has a base in Antarctica , a very smart and new one. They study weather and the ionosphere and other weird stuff. I dunno really. Their radars recently all fell down. Oops.
Po: That's cool! I almost became a meteorologist but then it had nothing to do with flying houses, so I becamse a writer.
Haha that our radars fall down! But, the para-lympics proved that we work better when at a disadvantage, so who knows, they might be able to see the next heat wave this time.
Dude, has your bird seen the woman in France?
Ches: All she knows is that Angelina Jolie is half French and that scares her. Let's not advertise this little tidbit of relationship suicide, for the happiness' sake.
Well, at least the crossiants will be fresh!
Ches: YES! Fresh pastries! Woohoo! In fact, I want to work part time at a boulangerie (bakery) even though I'm going over to teach English.
They're gona hate me.
You bastard! How dare you go into the great unknown beyond the elephant shaped continent! I cant even fall into the category of your friends who are loke oh shit! Yor really going? because I didnt even know about it! Now who shall I talk to as my intellectual peer and equal while you are gone (it'll be like this gigantic black hole of dumbness - and lets face it there arent too many writers in the area to fill it)
Now that I have appropriately vented my spleen I hope you enjoy the trip ( I will drop off my whishlist of goodies shortly) and I am sure it is going to be an experience of a lifetime. Ive travelled so I know - its well worth it (BUT PLEASE COME BACK - for the sake of sanity.)
Matthew: You will indeed be missed my friend. You must have known about it. I can't not speak about it all the time (I don't think that sentence makes sense). But I suppose it's because we only talk clever and me leaving my entire life behind is pretty much not clever, but yeah, unforgettable.
I will bring stuff for you on my regular visits to SA. Except these things will be cheap and meaningless because a lot of crap is a lot expensive there.
PS I must give you your game back before I go. I still have your CD (Cul Kids Keep it Real with Alice in Wonderland - scroll down).
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